Psalm 48

"We ponder your steadfast love O God,
in the midst of your temple."
Psalm 48:9

I've done a lot of pondering over the last couple of months. I don't know if it is deep thinking or just letting questions run around in my head that don't seem to have easy answers. I've pondered why it is that there are times when God's love seems so close and real that I could taste it and why at other times God seemed so far off and distant that the question of God's very existence came to mind.
The funny thing is that as I have pondered those times it is the times in which I have felt so far distant from God that have drawn me the most. As I have looked back upon those events and experiences I have found that God truly was there when I did not see God present. I guess that is one of the reasons why it is good to take time to ponder and reflect upon life and all that has come along with it, both the good and the bad.